The thing about pain

Have you ever experienced being hurt so badly? Like a stab in your chest and the memory just keeps on haunting you? What kind of pain have you felt? Was it something you felt when you saw your ultimate crush flirting with someone else? Or was it too much like you almost cried every night, something unbearable?

The thing is, pain is part of life. Like what they say, you can’t appreciate the good times without the bad ones. You won’t totally feel the essence of being happy without experiencing being sorrow.

But questions were on my mind, does time really heal the pain? Do memories can be forgotten?

One night, my childhood memories flashed back on my mind, even those times when I cried hard. Amazing how they were still vivid to me, when my knees were wounded badly, when my first baby tooth was removed, when someone blamed me for something I hadn’t done and you couldn’t anything about it, even just to explain yourself.

There were cases which made you traumatic that lead you on having a phobia on a thing. Maybe you became afraid of the heights because when you were still young, the roller coaster stopped for hours and unfortunately you were on the top most part? After all, we have something we are afraid of. That whenever we try to experience it again or if randomly you remember the incident, you find yourself too weak.

We do not sometimes become stronger. Truth is, some of us are already numb. Numb to that pain that we keep on experiencing. Numb enough to even care what people may say or think toward us. Numb enough to explain ourselves or let a tear stream down on our face.

Time really flies and changes happen. But reality is, time does not actually heal. It is not a kind of betadine or band aid that we just need to apply to cover the wound or let the bleeding stop. We don’t have the same experiences, but bottomline, we are responsible with our own lives—with our own thinking. The decision is always up to you if you will try your best to move on or let yourself still suffer from the pain of the past.

And no, memories—bad or good ones are most of the time the hardest to forget and the hardest to let go. Because it is true, no matter how hard we try to bury them, they will always remain.

Pain comes when you love, when you care, when you hope even when you dream. Almost comes with our everyday life. But it has always been up to you—if you will finally let yourself see the smiling sun after the devastating rain. And let me include what Haruki Murakami once said, “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”