Unfortunately His

We were like little kids running free in this world, telling to the whole world the feelings we have for each other. Being with you was the happiness I wouldn't trade for anyone or anything in this world. It was unbelievable that despite of the circumstances, you still chose to love me and treat me in a way anyone could ever ask for.

But unfortunately, you are meant to  share your world with other girl and meant to face life's struggles with her by your side.

It was a surreal moment when your lips met mine. When you utter the words that became magical to my ears. When you patiently waiting for me just to pick me up and get my bag just because you wouldn't want me to feel tired. We also became bestfriends, telling each other our opinion and not minding how ridiculous our embarrassing moments were.

But unfortunately, you are meant to wait, tell your thoughts and plan your future with her. 

You made me feel special every moment we shared, you made me feel that true love exists, you made me feel like I did worth a lot to someone that being without me had no direction, no path and no light. 

But unfortunately, you are meant to share special moments with her, love her unconditionally and make her feel worthy because of love. 

You allowed me to enter your world, you made me watch a basketball game live, I became a food tester of your specialties and there was even a time that you just did nothing within that rainy day but to cuddle with me. When you allowed me to see the place where you release out all your frustrations and problems in my life.

But unfortunately, you are meant to watch a game with her, make her your food tester and cuddle with her, share a cup of coffee that is also one of your specialties and though I was the first one to see your safe haven, the feeling wouldn't be the same anymore because I know the next time I'd visit, you are not with me to shout all my problems out. 

That time when you always tell me how much you loved me. Every once in a while within a day, even when I was still sleeping and you couldn't sleep, you would text me long messages telling me how much thankful you were that our worlds collided. When you always buy different type of flowers and send them to me almost everyday with no occasion at all.

But unfortunately, you are meant to say those words to her, text her in the middle of the night and buy her flowers and give it in an unexpected moment.

I once asked myself, why did we end up to each other when after all this time we weren't bound to last forever? But I also realized, maybe you were given even in just a period of timeto give me lessons and not be afraid to always open my heart for love. 

How I miss those moments. But no matter how hard I try, I know those things couldn't be back anymore. Those things are now nothing but memories. Yes, they are right. I must move on and just be happy for you. Even if I will tell how sorry I am, how much I regret my decisions way back, I know they would mean nothing now. I guess I will just have to accept it.

And yes. Here I am now. Unfortunately his.

The supergirl!

It's now time for Girl Crushes again! I am gonna introduce to all of you, my girl crush since PBB was first aired, none other than, Bianca Gonzalez! What I really adore about B is that she is very true to her words and she doesn't stop chasing her dreams. In fact, she loves travelling as well that she takes jump shots in every place. Who wouldn't love this lovely lady who is very simple yet very kind as well?

She also loves travelling that's why her Instagram is one of my favorites. Haha! I like it everytime she posts her jump shots in every place she has been. I hope I can make it too, someday!

I admire her also for being a supergirl wannabe, because she is a reminder for me to always explore more, go out of my comfort zone and see the bigger world and see what's in store for me. Bianca is not just a super girl for me, she is more than that--she is an inspiration for me and I know for all of us.

And I think, featuring her here is a right timing because she is about to tie the knot with one of the best basketball players in our time, JC Intal! I remember I was eating with my friends when they told me about the news that JC suprised B on the airport. I literally screamed! I was so happy for the both of them and I think it was the most romantic proposal ever!

She is also one of the reasons why I want to enter the world of Mass Communication when I get into college. When she had a short course in London, that also became one of my dreams.

I still remember my poem for her! Hihi.

But one thing Bianca taught me, is to be just be myself and never allow other people stop me from chasing my dreams. Everything has a right timing but great things will come if we will work for them. And I am indeed super excited for her wedding! I give my best wishes for you, B! You'll always be one of my inspirations. :)

Follow her!

Twitter/Instagram: @iamsuperbianca

Blog: iamsuperbianca.com 

Photo credits to: Mark Nicdao 

The Queen J

One night, as I was finding something interesting to read on Wattpad, "Mapapansin Kaya?" caught my attention. Maybe because the title already has that "catchy" characteristic that would make you read it. At first I thought, it has something to do with "Chinito" by Yeng Constantino because of the lyrics of the song. Haha! Yes, kinda stupid of me. So yup, I decided to give it a try, then I must say... The story exceeded my expectations. The author herself made me amazed so much. Not just because of her clean and very interesting way to tell a story, but because the characters were planned good enough.

Jonaxx on Wattpad, author of Mapapansin Kaya?, Heartless, No Perfect Prince, Until He Was Gone (my favorite!) and many more became one of my favorite authors ever. Or rather, she is now my ultimate favorite (naks). Why? Here are my 3 reasons:

1. The plot of her stories are really catchy; the ideas are new and would definitely make you learn something. The opinions of readers are always welcomed. To tell you honestly, she can make you cry in just few words. HONESTLY.

2. The characters are so to die for. Haha! Especially the guy characters, they can make you feel the "super kilig to the max" feeling. Actually, I already forgot my real crush in our school because of Elijah, really. I already forgot on how does it feel to have a REAL crush. Yep, that quick.

3. Last but not the least, she really loves writing. I don't know, 'cause someone just makes it for fame but for her, writing is really her passion. I guess that's why it makes her the queen.

Just the other day, I officially became one of the members of the Jonaxxstories Lovers. And WOW. The people are so friendly and very accommodating! You don't need to feel awkward at all because they will make you feel home.Whatever topic you want to say, or whatever you want to share, they are always welcome. With limitations, of course.

I'd also like to thank ate Shobe Pasamonte, Fedejik WP, Victoria Mae Cabahug, MissZelle Montefalco, Chichay Grey del Valle, Paulyn Joyce Tagum, Khey Cunanan and many more! Thank you for being so friendly and the rest of the members! I LOVE YOU ALL! 

To my favorite author, I hope this is the beginning of the success of your career. I'll always be here to support you and your works! I'll be forever hooked by them <3 

Jonaxx on Watty: wattpad.com/Jonaxx

Facebook: facebook.com/jonaxxWP?fref=ts

Blog: jonaxxstories.blogspot.com

Twitter: twitter.com/jonaxx_WP

Much love to the Queen J! <3 Credits to the owner of the photo! :)

One step closer

Hello, everyone! 

My readers (readers talaga?!) probably know that this blog of mine is really a dream come true for me. Not just because I already have something to put all the frustrations I have but because this was something that I wasn't expecting. But well, as they say, unplanned things or moments are usually the best ones. I could not agree more about that.

Just when the vacation was about to come, I was planning to do more (Rexona lang?! HAHAHA) and somehow go out of my comfort zone. Well not really in a manner of doing something that is so matured for my age. I just thought of doing something which I know I am also capable of, something which I know I will enjoy. And that is--writing my own story. YES, you have seen that right. And now, I must say I am really really enjoying of like being a storyteller.

I will tell more about it later. So yeah, why did it happen? I don't know as well. I have been reading Wattpad since I was in 7th Grade and stopped just last year also. But just last December, I thought of doing something rather than tweeting about my fangirl feels. So I used Wattpad as my alternative safe haven. I must say that the stories and writers nowadays are now more matured and seeing a lot of things in different perspectives that's why I enjoyed reading on the site again. 

I'm not bragging but my friends suggested me to try writing a story of my own. Since I don't really have a plan this vacation, I decided to finally try it. But the idea was already on my mind last year and I started writing it just months after. I'm not going to say that writing is really for me--but I must conclude that I love what I do and I do what I love. 

So now let's go to the story itself. The story focuses about dreams and love. I'm not going to give the whole overview but just think about these questions, "Does your love matter more than your dreams? Or your dreams matter more than your love?" Those questions best explain it. 

I'm giving it my 101% since I don't have so much to do this summer, well err, I have no plans yet. So I'm hoping not to let you down in case you read it or suggest it to your friends. 

SO, YUP! To everyone who wants to read something (I'm not gonna say it is really the BEST shot of mine, I don't want to disappoint) this summer. Try reading, "Which Matters More?" on Wattpad. :)

Here's the link: http://www.wattpad.com/story/13940981-which-matters-more

I know mostly writers hide their identity but hey! I wanna be at least proud of what I do. And I wanna let the people know who I am. HAHAHA. Conceited much? LOL.

I love you all! 

Miss Little Tall Girl Named,
 Bea <3 

My book cover!! Thanks to AJparisprincess! :D