Unfortunately His

We were like little kids running free in this world, telling to the whole world the feelings we have for each other. Being with you was the happiness I wouldn't trade for anyone or anything in this world. It was unbelievable that despite of the circumstances, you still chose to love me and treat me in a way anyone could ever ask for.

But unfortunately, you are meant to  share your world with other girl and meant to face life's struggles with her by your side.

It was a surreal moment when your lips met mine. When you utter the words that became magical to my ears. When you patiently waiting for me just to pick me up and get my bag just because you wouldn't want me to feel tired. We also became bestfriends, telling each other our opinion and not minding how ridiculous our embarrassing moments were.

But unfortunately, you are meant to wait, tell your thoughts and plan your future with her. 

You made me feel special every moment we shared, you made me feel that true love exists, you made me feel like I did worth a lot to someone that being without me had no direction, no path and no light. 

But unfortunately, you are meant to share special moments with her, love her unconditionally and make her feel worthy because of love. 

You allowed me to enter your world, you made me watch a basketball game live, I became a food tester of your specialties and there was even a time that you just did nothing within that rainy day but to cuddle with me. When you allowed me to see the place where you release out all your frustrations and problems in my life.

But unfortunately, you are meant to watch a game with her, make her your food tester and cuddle with her, share a cup of coffee that is also one of your specialties and though I was the first one to see your safe haven, the feeling wouldn't be the same anymore because I know the next time I'd visit, you are not with me to shout all my problems out. 

That time when you always tell me how much you loved me. Every once in a while within a day, even when I was still sleeping and you couldn't sleep, you would text me long messages telling me how much thankful you were that our worlds collided. When you always buy different type of flowers and send them to me almost everyday with no occasion at all.

But unfortunately, you are meant to say those words to her, text her in the middle of the night and buy her flowers and give it in an unexpected moment.

I once asked myself, why did we end up to each other when after all this time we weren't bound to last forever? But I also realized, maybe you were given even in just a period of timeto give me lessons and not be afraid to always open my heart for love. 

How I miss those moments. But no matter how hard I try, I know those things couldn't be back anymore. Those things are now nothing but memories. Yes, they are right. I must move on and just be happy for you. Even if I will tell how sorry I am, how much I regret my decisions way back, I know they would mean nothing now. I guess I will just have to accept it.

And yes. Here I am now. Unfortunately his.