It has been years now but the frustrations in me are like souls which are still seeking for their justice. The sadness I had felt since that day is still the same as now. Nothing ever changed. Even my love for you is still like the first time we kissed, the first time we dated.
I couldn’t even picture myself without you. Somehow, it amazes me how I manage to be happy in front of many people yet honestly I am dying inside. Guess I am really that good in trying to hide the pain. The last words you said to me keep coming on coming back, I keep hearing them whenever I am alone in my bed. Whenever I visit our favourite place, whenever I cook your favourite food, whenever I watch our favourite movie. Does it sound like I am torturing myself? Yes. If it’s that’s the only way I could remember you, your happy face, your manly yet pleasing voice, your sweet gestures, your cuteness like a kid whenever you are asking a favour. I don’t mind at all.
No words could ever tell how much I miss you. I miss you not just because you’re out of my sight now but I miss you knowing you are completely gone. And I will never see my other half again while I am running in this crazy world. I will never feel that hug again whenever I feel like breaking down.
Wherever you are, I know you are happy. There is no pain now, love. You are now free out of all these crap in life. You are now living in a paradise, you deserve it. Because you are an angel, you have always been my guardian angel. Don’t worry about me, I will still keep my best to stay happy like what you asked me to. But I hope you know that happiness you gave me will never be replaced by anyone else.
People come and go in my life but you are the only who stays in my heart, my vision of you smiling in front of me will never fade. The other half of me and my heart have always been yours. Forever. I will always keep loving you.
They say happiness is a choice, but what if my choice is gone now?
Random article which I wrote when I felt like dying because of a boring subject. LOL.
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