The Queen J

One night, as I was finding something interesting to read on Wattpad, "Mapapansin Kaya?" caught my attention. Maybe because the title already has that "catchy" characteristic that would make you read it. At first I thought, it has something to do with "Chinito" by Yeng Constantino because of the lyrics of the song. Haha! Yes, kinda stupid of me. So yup, I decided to give it a try, then I must say... The story exceeded my expectations. The author herself made me amazed so much. Not just because of her clean and very interesting way to tell a story, but because the characters were planned good enough.

Jonaxx on Wattpad, author of Mapapansin Kaya?, Heartless, No Perfect Prince, Until He Was Gone (my favorite!) and many more became one of my favorite authors ever. Or rather, she is now my ultimate favorite (naks). Why? Here are my 3 reasons:

1. The plot of her stories are really catchy; the ideas are new and would definitely make you learn something. The opinions of readers are always welcomed. To tell you honestly, she can make you cry in just few words. HONESTLY.

2. The characters are so to die for. Haha! Especially the guy characters, they can make you feel the "super kilig to the max" feeling. Actually, I already forgot my real crush in our school because of Elijah, really. I already forgot on how does it feel to have a REAL crush. Yep, that quick.

3. Last but not the least, she really loves writing. I don't know, 'cause someone just makes it for fame but for her, writing is really her passion. I guess that's why it makes her the queen.

Just the other day, I officially became one of the members of the Jonaxxstories Lovers. And WOW. The people are so friendly and very accommodating! You don't need to feel awkward at all because they will make you feel home.Whatever topic you want to say, or whatever you want to share, they are always welcome. With limitations, of course.

I'd also like to thank ate Shobe Pasamonte, Fedejik WP, Victoria Mae Cabahug, MissZelle Montefalco, Chichay Grey del Valle, Paulyn Joyce Tagum, Khey Cunanan and many more! Thank you for being so friendly and the rest of the members! I LOVE YOU ALL! 

To my favorite author, I hope this is the beginning of the success of your career. I'll always be here to support you and your works! I'll be forever hooked by them <3 

Jonaxx on Watty: wattpad.com/Jonaxx

Facebook: facebook.com/jonaxxWP?fref=ts

Blog: jonaxxstories.blogspot.com

Twitter: twitter.com/jonaxx_WP

Much love to the Queen J! <3 Credits to the owner of the photo! :)

One step closer

Hello, everyone! 

My readers (readers talaga?!) probably know that this blog of mine is really a dream come true for me. Not just because I already have something to put all the frustrations I have but because this was something that I wasn't expecting. But well, as they say, unplanned things or moments are usually the best ones. I could not agree more about that.

Just when the vacation was about to come, I was planning to do more (Rexona lang?! HAHAHA) and somehow go out of my comfort zone. Well not really in a manner of doing something that is so matured for my age. I just thought of doing something which I know I am also capable of, something which I know I will enjoy. And that is--writing my own story. YES, you have seen that right. And now, I must say I am really really enjoying of like being a storyteller.

I will tell more about it later. So yeah, why did it happen? I don't know as well. I have been reading Wattpad since I was in 7th Grade and stopped just last year also. But just last December, I thought of doing something rather than tweeting about my fangirl feels. So I used Wattpad as my alternative safe haven. I must say that the stories and writers nowadays are now more matured and seeing a lot of things in different perspectives that's why I enjoyed reading on the site again. 

I'm not bragging but my friends suggested me to try writing a story of my own. Since I don't really have a plan this vacation, I decided to finally try it. But the idea was already on my mind last year and I started writing it just months after. I'm not going to say that writing is really for me--but I must conclude that I love what I do and I do what I love. 

So now let's go to the story itself. The story focuses about dreams and love. I'm not going to give the whole overview but just think about these questions, "Does your love matter more than your dreams? Or your dreams matter more than your love?" Those questions best explain it. 

I'm giving it my 101% since I don't have so much to do this summer, well err, I have no plans yet. So I'm hoping not to let you down in case you read it or suggest it to your friends. 

SO, YUP! To everyone who wants to read something (I'm not gonna say it is really the BEST shot of mine, I don't want to disappoint) this summer. Try reading, "Which Matters More?" on Wattpad. :)

Here's the link: http://www.wattpad.com/story/13940981-which-matters-more

I know mostly writers hide their identity but hey! I wanna be at least proud of what I do. And I wanna let the people know who I am. HAHAHA. Conceited much? LOL.

I love you all! 

Miss Little Tall Girl Named,
 Bea <3 

My book cover!! Thanks to AJparisprincess! :D

The thing about pain

Have you ever experienced being hurt so badly? Like a stab in your chest and the memory just keeps on haunting you? What kind of pain have you felt? Was it something you felt when you saw your ultimate crush flirting with someone else? Or was it too much like you almost cried every night, something unbearable?

The thing is, pain is part of life. Like what they say, you can’t appreciate the good times without the bad ones. You won’t totally feel the essence of being happy without experiencing being sorrow.

But questions were on my mind, does time really heal the pain? Do memories can be forgotten?

One night, my childhood memories flashed back on my mind, even those times when I cried hard. Amazing how they were still vivid to me, when my knees were wounded badly, when my first baby tooth was removed, when someone blamed me for something I hadn’t done and you couldn’t anything about it, even just to explain yourself.

There were cases which made you traumatic that lead you on having a phobia on a thing. Maybe you became afraid of the heights because when you were still young, the roller coaster stopped for hours and unfortunately you were on the top most part? After all, we have something we are afraid of. That whenever we try to experience it again or if randomly you remember the incident, you find yourself too weak.

We do not sometimes become stronger. Truth is, some of us are already numb. Numb to that pain that we keep on experiencing. Numb enough to even care what people may say or think toward us. Numb enough to explain ourselves or let a tear stream down on our face.

Time really flies and changes happen. But reality is, time does not actually heal. It is not a kind of betadine or band aid that we just need to apply to cover the wound or let the bleeding stop. We don’t have the same experiences, but bottomline, we are responsible with our own lives—with our own thinking. The decision is always up to you if you will try your best to move on or let yourself still suffer from the pain of the past.

And no, memories—bad or good ones are most of the time the hardest to forget and the hardest to let go. Because it is true, no matter how hard we try to bury them, they will always remain.

Pain comes when you love, when you care, when you hope even when you dream. Almost comes with our everyday life. But it has always been up to you—if you will finally let yourself see the smiling sun after the devastating rain. And let me include what Haruki Murakami once said, “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

The lovable sisters!

It's now time for my girl crushes! This time around, I'll share with you how much I adore and love the Smith sisters! Well, who doesn't love them anyway?! The sisters who have gotten many boys' hearts and have a lot of endorsements everywhere! I think everybody loves them just as much as I do! Well then again, who wouldn't?

Anne Curtis Smith or better known as Anne Curtis is really my ultimate girl crush. BECAUSE C'MON, THIS LOVELY LADY IS JUST THE NATIONAL SWEETHEART AND THE LADY IN THE PHILIPPINES WHO HAS SIX MILLION FOLLOWERS IN TWITTER AS OF THE MOMENT! What I love the most about Anne is despite of being one of the most popular and one of the in demand celebrities of today, she remains the Anne who has a very very very pure and kind heart! She is also the best example to say that dreams do really come true! I love her confidence towards herself (it's not annoying), I love how she tells to all the people that dreams do really happen if we will just work hard for them!

Inside and out, Anne is a goddess. Her body is just too perfect that whenever I see her billboard at NLEX, I just couldn't stop my eyes looking at her. One day, I'll have her body as well! KIDDING! Today she is celebrating her birthday and I want for her nothing but happiness and more endorsements (do we need to wish for this endorsement thingy? LOL she nails every endorsements she has!) and I badly want her to be married already! Yes, as in badly. I want to see how her wedding will be, how her kids will look like! But well, with Erwan and Anne, I know they're just going to be like Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. No kidd!

I hope she continues to inspire each and everyone! I LOVE YOU, ANNE! I hope you still remember my poem for you. Hihihi.

While, her sister Jasmine Curtis Smith or Jas is just wow... Simple yet so stunning! Her sweet smile I guess makes her really special above all. I also love the fact that her priority is still her studies and I love it everytime she tweets just like what a normal student feels! I also adore the fact that she remains true not just for herself, for the people around her but also for her fans. She keeps on working hard and also proving to people that she deserves everything she has now. I guess that's what makes her loved by almost everyone.

Her acting skills are also amazing! I love the way she works in every role, she makes it extraordinary! Keep up the great work, Jas! I know you will achieve more than what you imagine! 

Well yeah, who doesn't love these sisters? I admire them that even if they have an Australian blood, Filipinos are number 1 in their hearts <3 I love you both! I will forever keep on supporting ya! 

Follow them at:
Jasmine's Twitter and Instagram: @jascurtissmith
Anne's Twitter and Instagram: @annecurtissmith 
(Credits to photo owners! <3)

Besos! <3

Be Better!

Yes, yes. It's Valentine's Day tomorrow and everybody is just so busy planning over just for that day! Well, who doesn't?! After all, February 14 just comes once in a year. But to those people who don't want to commit themselves yet, or simply don't have the time for a relationship. THAT DAY IS MEANT FOR YOU AS WELL, don't you ever forget that! Here are some tips you may be pleased to do:

1. Thank God!
The most important thing to do. We are here because of Him, we are here because of His love, we are here because we are the children of God. No one could ever replace the way He sacrificed himself for all of us, yes, there was no exception. All of us. Even if we always disappoint Him, He is still there loving us and making us feel the true meaning of love. Like I always say, FOREVER is not a word. Because it is still possible with God.

2. Love yourself!
I remembered a quote which I have read about love and as well how to deal with guys. The book has it all but one thing it didn't forget the reader to remember. It says that, "Love yourself first. If you don't love yourself, you can't possible share love with anyone." True enough. I'm not judging it, but some people really do love their partner to the point that they forget themselves already. Don't. Because after all, you yourself is the only person who you won't leave you.

3. Be with family and friends!
This is what I tell to my friends who keep on complaining that they don't have nothing to celebrate on Vday. C'mon, love is everywhere! Treat your mommy, play guitar with your dad, eat in a newest restaurant with your friends! We have plenty to do. Don't just focus on the thing that Vday is just for couples. Why don't you cuddle with your dog instead, eh?

4. Be with someone who make you better and make you feel so loved.
I'm not gonna be bias so here is a tip to all not a single lady! You should feel blessed and thankful that you have your someone. For a guy, never forget to tell how much you treasure and love her. Trust me, I may not have a boyfriend yet but that is the most precious gift ever. But if you're a girl, don't always believe in the "first move." Why? Ask yourself, lagi nalang ba ang boys ang mageeffort? Why not try baking cookies and cake? Yes, it's always the thought that counts. And make the day, one of your most memorable dates.

All in all, whatever your status may be, don't forget that you are loved! Seal the day with a smile, a kiss and I love you! Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! <3

Miss Little Tall Girl Named,
Bea

Next Time I Fall In Love

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself believe too much lies again. Those lies which captivated me at first that I felt like floating on a cloud nine when I heard them from you, making me believe how much you love and treasure me. Next thing I knew, everything turned out the other way around.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let my hopes get too high again. Those high hopes which I was thinking I’d be happy with my life, but they were the unspeakable pain I have ever felt. Thinking happy thoughts and dreams with full high hopes was the greatest mistake I made. Because all of those are just crap.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let my heart take over with me again. Sure, I should consider what my heart feels but it was just a huge mistake ignoring what my brain told me. Because I thought I’d be so much happier if I let my heart win. But it turned out, you are my most painful heartache.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself get what I don’t deserve. Did you even know?  Because I loved you, I didn’t mind at all what you were doing for me in return. You didn’t have the guts to surprise me with a dinner date yet I still managed to cook dinner for you. But what hurts the most is that I still loved you even with your imperfections. That’s how perfect you were for me.. before.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself be taken for granted again. I will know and matter my worth more than the love.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself give too much again. Giving it all to you was something I had done because that’s how much you mattered to me. But in return, all I felt was nothingness. This time, I will make sure to spare myself the love I give. As they say, love yourself first.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself feel this kind of pain again. I will take every step slowly now. I will be more cautious. I will not let my emotional feelings get over me. What you made me experience is enough reason for me to be smarter this time around.  

But you know what? Next time I fall in love, I’d still wish you are the guy I am going to fall in love with. 

P.S.: Another article again. Forgive my emotional feelings and being so damn dramatic.

Forever A Missing Piece

It has been years now but the frustrations in me are like souls which are still seeking for their justice. The sadness I had felt since that day is still the same as now. Nothing ever changed. Even my love for you is still like the first time we kissed, the first time we dated.

I couldn’t even picture myself without you. Somehow, it amazes me how I manage to be happy in front of many people yet honestly I am dying inside. Guess I am really that good in trying to hide the pain. The last words you said to me keep coming on coming back, I keep hearing them whenever I am alone in my bed. Whenever I visit our favourite place, whenever I cook your favourite food, whenever I watch our favourite movie. Does it sound like I am torturing myself? Yes. If it’s that’s the only way I could remember you, your happy face, your manly yet pleasing voice, your sweet gestures, your cuteness like a kid whenever you are asking a favour. I don’t mind at all.

No words could ever tell how much I miss you. I miss you not just because you’re out of my sight now but I miss you knowing you are completely gone. And I will never see my other half again while I am running in this crazy world. I will never feel that hug again whenever I feel like breaking down.

Wherever you are, I know you are happy. There is no pain now, love. You are now free out of all these crap in life. You are now living in a paradise, you deserve it. Because you are an angel, you have always been my guardian angel. Don’t worry about me, I will still keep my best to stay happy like what you asked me to. But I hope you know that happiness you gave me will never be replaced by anyone else.

People come and go in my life but you are the only who stays in my heart, my vision of you smiling in front of me will never fade. The other half of me and my heart have always been yours. Forever. I will always keep loving you.

They say happiness is a choice, but what if my choice is gone now? 

Random article which I wrote when I felt like dying because of a boring subject. LOL.