Giveaway: Mapapansin Kaya

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Until Trilogy

I don't even know what to write first, most especially that it is all about my favorite Wattpad story ever. I know, it's hard to say that it is really my favorite, given the fact I have been reading Wattpad stories since I don't know when. Also, I seldom recommend Wattpad stories because I don't like sharing the main guy to my friends. Hahaha! I must admit, Until Series is always an exception to the rule.

I started reading this not aware of anything, but of course, the "pain" part is already a part of a story. But this one is just too different. And when I say different, it really is. A "roller coaster" ride is too mainstream to even describe it.

I'm afraid I might be too spoiler to those who haven't read it yet. So I'm really trying my best not too go beyond the limit. :p

Let me share you something, I don't really read stories which are still on going. As in. I am not a fan of it. But jonaxx, she made me break my ever rule when it comes to reading on Wattpad. And damn, it was worth it. The story was just too cool for my liking and it even made me want to just go inside my laptop and bond with the Montefalcos. Gaah. Queen J's mind is too awesome, she knows how to be a party animal. Hahaha, and I love her because of that! Hello, Azi.

This trilogy is the only one I have read that will teach you how to surf, what to drink, how to be classy, where to check in and how to chill.

The book 1 ended...... I was like: OMG ANO BA ITO NA BA 'TO?! WTF.

The book 2 ended...... I was like: OMG THIZ IZ REALLY IZ ITTTT

The book 3 is finally ending.... I am like: Not yet... Please.

Actually, jonaxx also started a General Fiction story though she is still writing the book 3. I was attached, yes, I even forgot the Montefalcos... a little. But right after that story ended, I realized, I would also come back to where I truly belong. Naks.

Gah seriously, it feels like this trilogy is already a part of my system that I always look forward to it every 10pm onwards. So I guess I'm gonna have a hard time when this ends. But luckily, a Montefalco series is on the way and this is jut the beginning of it! Super super looking forward!!!

Elijah and Klare, you deserve all the love in this world. You both are worth it. We love you!!! <3 nbsp="" p="">
And to the mastermind, I love you more.

3 chapters left... LEZZ DO THIS!


UNTIL TRILOGY NAILS IT!!! <3 p="">

A Beautiful Pain

It was September that time, I was happy because Christmas was approaching yet again and it was even my birth month. But what you made me feel was something I couldn’t simply forget, I couldn’t easily let the memory fade away.

For the first time, I experienced a heart break. When I finally confessed what I honestly felt for you, more than the siblings’ love we’ve shared, more than the friendship we’ve created, it was more than those.  It was love. It was something odd which I felt, it was strange yet a beautiful feeling that I experienced for the first time. I was scared, yes, but not enough to make me feel weak to confess what this heart had for you that time. I didn’t let myself to be blind, I accepted it.

I was vulnerable yet the feeling showed me how tough I could get.

But it did turn into a heart break.  My heart suddenly became fragile. I remembered I did my best not to cry in front of my family, because I didn’t want them to know I wanted to cry just because a guy told me what he felt for me was just a sisterly love. I was a sister for him. I was just. Not even more than that.

And just like what the youth tells nowadays, “Move on kahit walang naging 'kayo.” I did my very best to forget everything. How it all started. How the memories were made. And, you.

But then, what ifs came out of my mind.

What if we are really meant for each other but it is not yet the right time?

What if we have first known each other way back, would it affect what has happened?

What if your heart didn't beat for someone that time, would it be “us” finally?

What if the tables have turned and time comes when you are now the one chasing after me?

What if we both didn't meet each other in the first place, was I still going to experience a heart break?

What if we both gave a chance was it going to be enough to make us happy?

But now, I could finally say I have moved on. Because right now, I am happy to say we remained friends and you became one of the best people in my life. It was when I finally agreed to what my friend had told me, sometimes something was not given not because we don’t deserve it, but because we deserve much better. Even better than the best. 

I want to thank you despite of everything. For giving me an experience I could never forget. Why? Because you are one of the reasons for whom I am right now. Thank you for the rejection; it did make me realize it sometimes makes our life go into the right path. Thank you for the heartbreak, it did make me stronger.

But most of all, thank you for making me realize the real worth of love. That is, I am worth it to be loved and I deserve to be with someone who will love me unconditionally…. Not now, yes. But someday--In God’s perfect time. 

In the heart of a basketball player fan

I don't know and I haven't realized much that I am being so "supportive" or I am in that state of "fangirling" too much until my friends told me so. And even those peeps who just know me by Twitter or Facebook already call me, "Mrs. Ravena", "Girlfriend ni Kiefer" etc. That's when I really realized that maybe, I am being way too supportive.

But let me tell you this, I didn't even get bothered about it. Or maybe, on the other side, I was happy and proud that they see my "fangirling" mode that way. Again, there's nothing to be ashamed of. I guess as you read this part, you probably feel this is just another post about Kiefer Ravena. But nope. I will make sure I will write in general. In the heart of a basketball player fan.

Before I start, let me introduce myself as a 15 year old girl who obviously hasn't gotten herself a job yet. So it is pretty much hard to watch basketball games live as you will still have problems about money (and the reason behind watching a basketball game though you're a girl) and the problem of watching it live at Araneta or MOA Arena. I do not live in Metro Manila, first and foremost, that's why I need to get everything planned if I really wanna watch a game live.

Now that's one point--the hardwork you do just to support him/they as you shout your heart out. It is one of the reasons why you are a fan. Because even if it takes sweat and blood, money and lies, you will do just for him to know you're there. In person.

Another thing is, some people don't just understand the point of "tweeting" your feels on Twitter, though, it's a social networking site. People might see you or reflect you as an annoying fantard who keeps on tracking her idol every minute of every day. Or sometimes, flooding their timeline with your tweets for him about how much you love and adore him/getting a follow back. But let me tell you this, those people are obviously missing/missed their youth life. But beware, some people are really annoying when it comes to Twitter. The limitations are always set to be followed.

Next, along with tweeting, you yourself being opinionated is an issue for everybody. Most especially when a team protests about your idol, you will find yourself being a defender. Worse, if a Twitter fanpage of the another team sees your tweet, expect for a Twitter war. Kidding. In times like that, always look for the sides of both teams. It is not just about being a fangirl, it is also about seeing the truth and following the right way without being bias.

When your basketball player idol/crush/love suddenly has a girlfriend. Oh my gosh, this is too appropriate for me. Lol. Okay, I said I won't mention Kiefer alone but except for this one. Well actually, I became a fan already without him having a girlfriend that time. So when TD (I won't mention a name anymore) came, I became mad (really mad) and jealous. Yes, jealous. I thought to myself that maybe he won't allow us (his fangirls) to come closer to him anymore (though I haven't had a picture with him yet lol). Yes, what a lame idea. But as I get matured, I realized, why the heck would I allow myself to have business with his heart?! Of course, we always want the best for him/them but honestly, it is their decision already. If you don't see the girl as the "best", well, just make sure you would not bash the girl. 'Cause I'm sure, he gets hurt. Feelings are something we shouldn't interfere with.

All in all, being a basketball player fan is not just about those ball statistics, it is all about loving and trusting him. Because really, he is there because we are here. Love and support him when he shoots the ball just as much as when he misses it.

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Unfortunately His

We were like little kids running free in this world, telling to the whole world the feelings we have for each other. Being with you was the happiness I wouldn't trade for anyone or anything in this world. It was unbelievable that despite of the circumstances, you still chose to love me and treat me in a way anyone could ever ask for.

But unfortunately, you are meant to  share your world with other girl and meant to face life's struggles with her by your side.

It was a surreal moment when your lips met mine. When you utter the words that became magical to my ears. When you patiently waiting for me just to pick me up and get my bag just because you wouldn't want me to feel tired. We also became bestfriends, telling each other our opinion and not minding how ridiculous our embarrassing moments were.

But unfortunately, you are meant to wait, tell your thoughts and plan your future with her. 

You made me feel special every moment we shared, you made me feel that true love exists, you made me feel like I did worth a lot to someone that being without me had no direction, no path and no light. 

But unfortunately, you are meant to share special moments with her, love her unconditionally and make her feel worthy because of love. 

You allowed me to enter your world, you made me watch a basketball game live, I became a food tester of your specialties and there was even a time that you just did nothing within that rainy day but to cuddle with me. When you allowed me to see the place where you release out all your frustrations and problems in my life.

But unfortunately, you are meant to watch a game with her, make her your food tester and cuddle with her, share a cup of coffee that is also one of your specialties and though I was the first one to see your safe haven, the feeling wouldn't be the same anymore because I know the next time I'd visit, you are not with me to shout all my problems out. 

That time when you always tell me how much you loved me. Every once in a while within a day, even when I was still sleeping and you couldn't sleep, you would text me long messages telling me how much thankful you were that our worlds collided. When you always buy different type of flowers and send them to me almost everyday with no occasion at all.

But unfortunately, you are meant to say those words to her, text her in the middle of the night and buy her flowers and give it in an unexpected moment.

I once asked myself, why did we end up to each other when after all this time we weren't bound to last forever? But I also realized, maybe you were given even in just a period of timeto give me lessons and not be afraid to always open my heart for love. 

How I miss those moments. But no matter how hard I try, I know those things couldn't be back anymore. Those things are now nothing but memories. Yes, they are right. I must move on and just be happy for you. Even if I will tell how sorry I am, how much I regret my decisions way back, I know they would mean nothing now. I guess I will just have to accept it.

And yes. Here I am now. Unfortunately his.

The supergirl!

It's now time for Girl Crushes again! I am gonna introduce to all of you, my girl crush since PBB was first aired, none other than, Bianca Gonzalez! What I really adore about B is that she is very true to her words and she doesn't stop chasing her dreams. In fact, she loves travelling as well that she takes jump shots in every place. Who wouldn't love this lovely lady who is very simple yet very kind as well?

She also loves travelling that's why her Instagram is one of my favorites. Haha! I like it everytime she posts her jump shots in every place she has been. I hope I can make it too, someday!

I admire her also for being a supergirl wannabe, because she is a reminder for me to always explore more, go out of my comfort zone and see the bigger world and see what's in store for me. Bianca is not just a super girl for me, she is more than that--she is an inspiration for me and I know for all of us.

And I think, featuring her here is a right timing because she is about to tie the knot with one of the best basketball players in our time, JC Intal! I remember I was eating with my friends when they told me about the news that JC suprised B on the airport. I literally screamed! I was so happy for the both of them and I think it was the most romantic proposal ever!

She is also one of the reasons why I want to enter the world of Mass Communication when I get into college. When she had a short course in London, that also became one of my dreams.

I still remember my poem for her! Hihi.

But one thing Bianca taught me, is to be just be myself and never allow other people stop me from chasing my dreams. Everything has a right timing but great things will come if we will work for them. And I am indeed super excited for her wedding! I give my best wishes for you, B! You'll always be one of my inspirations. :)

Follow her!

Twitter/Instagram: @iamsuperbianca

Blog: iamsuperbianca.com 

Photo credits to: Mark Nicdao 

The Queen J

One night, as I was finding something interesting to read on Wattpad, "Mapapansin Kaya?" caught my attention. Maybe because the title already has that "catchy" characteristic that would make you read it. At first I thought, it has something to do with "Chinito" by Yeng Constantino because of the lyrics of the song. Haha! Yes, kinda stupid of me. So yup, I decided to give it a try, then I must say... The story exceeded my expectations. The author herself made me amazed so much. Not just because of her clean and very interesting way to tell a story, but because the characters were planned good enough.

Jonaxx on Wattpad, author of Mapapansin Kaya?, Heartless, No Perfect Prince, Until He Was Gone (my favorite!) and many more became one of my favorite authors ever. Or rather, she is now my ultimate favorite (naks). Why? Here are my 3 reasons:

1. The plot of her stories are really catchy; the ideas are new and would definitely make you learn something. The opinions of readers are always welcomed. To tell you honestly, she can make you cry in just few words. HONESTLY.

2. The characters are so to die for. Haha! Especially the guy characters, they can make you feel the "super kilig to the max" feeling. Actually, I already forgot my real crush in our school because of Elijah, really. I already forgot on how does it feel to have a REAL crush. Yep, that quick.

3. Last but not the least, she really loves writing. I don't know, 'cause someone just makes it for fame but for her, writing is really her passion. I guess that's why it makes her the queen.

Just the other day, I officially became one of the members of the Jonaxxstories Lovers. And WOW. The people are so friendly and very accommodating! You don't need to feel awkward at all because they will make you feel home.Whatever topic you want to say, or whatever you want to share, they are always welcome. With limitations, of course.

I'd also like to thank ate Shobe Pasamonte, Fedejik WP, Victoria Mae Cabahug, MissZelle Montefalco, Chichay Grey del Valle, Paulyn Joyce Tagum, Khey Cunanan and many more! Thank you for being so friendly and the rest of the members! I LOVE YOU ALL! 

To my favorite author, I hope this is the beginning of the success of your career. I'll always be here to support you and your works! I'll be forever hooked by them <3 

Jonaxx on Watty: wattpad.com/Jonaxx

Facebook: facebook.com/jonaxxWP?fref=ts

Blog: jonaxxstories.blogspot.com

Twitter: twitter.com/jonaxx_WP

Much love to the Queen J! <3 Credits to the owner of the photo! :)

One step closer

Hello, everyone! 

My readers (readers talaga?!) probably know that this blog of mine is really a dream come true for me. Not just because I already have something to put all the frustrations I have but because this was something that I wasn't expecting. But well, as they say, unplanned things or moments are usually the best ones. I could not agree more about that.

Just when the vacation was about to come, I was planning to do more (Rexona lang?! HAHAHA) and somehow go out of my comfort zone. Well not really in a manner of doing something that is so matured for my age. I just thought of doing something which I know I am also capable of, something which I know I will enjoy. And that is--writing my own story. YES, you have seen that right. And now, I must say I am really really enjoying of like being a storyteller.

I will tell more about it later. So yeah, why did it happen? I don't know as well. I have been reading Wattpad since I was in 7th Grade and stopped just last year also. But just last December, I thought of doing something rather than tweeting about my fangirl feels. So I used Wattpad as my alternative safe haven. I must say that the stories and writers nowadays are now more matured and seeing a lot of things in different perspectives that's why I enjoyed reading on the site again. 

I'm not bragging but my friends suggested me to try writing a story of my own. Since I don't really have a plan this vacation, I decided to finally try it. But the idea was already on my mind last year and I started writing it just months after. I'm not going to say that writing is really for me--but I must conclude that I love what I do and I do what I love. 

So now let's go to the story itself. The story focuses about dreams and love. I'm not going to give the whole overview but just think about these questions, "Does your love matter more than your dreams? Or your dreams matter more than your love?" Those questions best explain it. 

I'm giving it my 101% since I don't have so much to do this summer, well err, I have no plans yet. So I'm hoping not to let you down in case you read it or suggest it to your friends. 

SO, YUP! To everyone who wants to read something (I'm not gonna say it is really the BEST shot of mine, I don't want to disappoint) this summer. Try reading, "Which Matters More?" on Wattpad. :)

Here's the link: http://www.wattpad.com/story/13940981-which-matters-more

I know mostly writers hide their identity but hey! I wanna be at least proud of what I do. And I wanna let the people know who I am. HAHAHA. Conceited much? LOL.

I love you all! 

Miss Little Tall Girl Named,
 Bea <3 

My book cover!! Thanks to AJparisprincess! :D

The thing about pain

Have you ever experienced being hurt so badly? Like a stab in your chest and the memory just keeps on haunting you? What kind of pain have you felt? Was it something you felt when you saw your ultimate crush flirting with someone else? Or was it too much like you almost cried every night, something unbearable?

The thing is, pain is part of life. Like what they say, you can’t appreciate the good times without the bad ones. You won’t totally feel the essence of being happy without experiencing being sorrow.

But questions were on my mind, does time really heal the pain? Do memories can be forgotten?

One night, my childhood memories flashed back on my mind, even those times when I cried hard. Amazing how they were still vivid to me, when my knees were wounded badly, when my first baby tooth was removed, when someone blamed me for something I hadn’t done and you couldn’t anything about it, even just to explain yourself.

There were cases which made you traumatic that lead you on having a phobia on a thing. Maybe you became afraid of the heights because when you were still young, the roller coaster stopped for hours and unfortunately you were on the top most part? After all, we have something we are afraid of. That whenever we try to experience it again or if randomly you remember the incident, you find yourself too weak.

We do not sometimes become stronger. Truth is, some of us are already numb. Numb to that pain that we keep on experiencing. Numb enough to even care what people may say or think toward us. Numb enough to explain ourselves or let a tear stream down on our face.

Time really flies and changes happen. But reality is, time does not actually heal. It is not a kind of betadine or band aid that we just need to apply to cover the wound or let the bleeding stop. We don’t have the same experiences, but bottomline, we are responsible with our own lives—with our own thinking. The decision is always up to you if you will try your best to move on or let yourself still suffer from the pain of the past.

And no, memories—bad or good ones are most of the time the hardest to forget and the hardest to let go. Because it is true, no matter how hard we try to bury them, they will always remain.

Pain comes when you love, when you care, when you hope even when you dream. Almost comes with our everyday life. But it has always been up to you—if you will finally let yourself see the smiling sun after the devastating rain. And let me include what Haruki Murakami once said, “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

The lovable sisters!

It's now time for my girl crushes! This time around, I'll share with you how much I adore and love the Smith sisters! Well, who doesn't love them anyway?! The sisters who have gotten many boys' hearts and have a lot of endorsements everywhere! I think everybody loves them just as much as I do! Well then again, who wouldn't?

Anne Curtis Smith or better known as Anne Curtis is really my ultimate girl crush. BECAUSE C'MON, THIS LOVELY LADY IS JUST THE NATIONAL SWEETHEART AND THE LADY IN THE PHILIPPINES WHO HAS SIX MILLION FOLLOWERS IN TWITTER AS OF THE MOMENT! What I love the most about Anne is despite of being one of the most popular and one of the in demand celebrities of today, she remains the Anne who has a very very very pure and kind heart! She is also the best example to say that dreams do really come true! I love her confidence towards herself (it's not annoying), I love how she tells to all the people that dreams do really happen if we will just work hard for them!

Inside and out, Anne is a goddess. Her body is just too perfect that whenever I see her billboard at NLEX, I just couldn't stop my eyes looking at her. One day, I'll have her body as well! KIDDING! Today she is celebrating her birthday and I want for her nothing but happiness and more endorsements (do we need to wish for this endorsement thingy? LOL she nails every endorsements she has!) and I badly want her to be married already! Yes, as in badly. I want to see how her wedding will be, how her kids will look like! But well, with Erwan and Anne, I know they're just going to be like Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. No kidd!

I hope she continues to inspire each and everyone! I LOVE YOU, ANNE! I hope you still remember my poem for you. Hihihi.

While, her sister Jasmine Curtis Smith or Jas is just wow... Simple yet so stunning! Her sweet smile I guess makes her really special above all. I also love the fact that her priority is still her studies and I love it everytime she tweets just like what a normal student feels! I also adore the fact that she remains true not just for herself, for the people around her but also for her fans. She keeps on working hard and also proving to people that she deserves everything she has now. I guess that's what makes her loved by almost everyone.

Her acting skills are also amazing! I love the way she works in every role, she makes it extraordinary! Keep up the great work, Jas! I know you will achieve more than what you imagine! 

Well yeah, who doesn't love these sisters? I admire them that even if they have an Australian blood, Filipinos are number 1 in their hearts <3 I love you both! I will forever keep on supporting ya! 

Follow them at:
Jasmine's Twitter and Instagram: @jascurtissmith
Anne's Twitter and Instagram: @annecurtissmith 
(Credits to photo owners! <3)

Besos! <3

Be Better!

Yes, yes. It's Valentine's Day tomorrow and everybody is just so busy planning over just for that day! Well, who doesn't?! After all, February 14 just comes once in a year. But to those people who don't want to commit themselves yet, or simply don't have the time for a relationship. THAT DAY IS MEANT FOR YOU AS WELL, don't you ever forget that! Here are some tips you may be pleased to do:

1. Thank God!
The most important thing to do. We are here because of Him, we are here because of His love, we are here because we are the children of God. No one could ever replace the way He sacrificed himself for all of us, yes, there was no exception. All of us. Even if we always disappoint Him, He is still there loving us and making us feel the true meaning of love. Like I always say, FOREVER is not a word. Because it is still possible with God.

2. Love yourself!
I remembered a quote which I have read about love and as well how to deal with guys. The book has it all but one thing it didn't forget the reader to remember. It says that, "Love yourself first. If you don't love yourself, you can't possible share love with anyone." True enough. I'm not judging it, but some people really do love their partner to the point that they forget themselves already. Don't. Because after all, you yourself is the only person who you won't leave you.

3. Be with family and friends!
This is what I tell to my friends who keep on complaining that they don't have nothing to celebrate on Vday. C'mon, love is everywhere! Treat your mommy, play guitar with your dad, eat in a newest restaurant with your friends! We have plenty to do. Don't just focus on the thing that Vday is just for couples. Why don't you cuddle with your dog instead, eh?

4. Be with someone who make you better and make you feel so loved.
I'm not gonna be bias so here is a tip to all not a single lady! You should feel blessed and thankful that you have your someone. For a guy, never forget to tell how much you treasure and love her. Trust me, I may not have a boyfriend yet but that is the most precious gift ever. But if you're a girl, don't always believe in the "first move." Why? Ask yourself, lagi nalang ba ang boys ang mageeffort? Why not try baking cookies and cake? Yes, it's always the thought that counts. And make the day, one of your most memorable dates.

All in all, whatever your status may be, don't forget that you are loved! Seal the day with a smile, a kiss and I love you! Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! <3

Miss Little Tall Girl Named,
Bea

Next Time I Fall In Love

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself believe too much lies again. Those lies which captivated me at first that I felt like floating on a cloud nine when I heard them from you, making me believe how much you love and treasure me. Next thing I knew, everything turned out the other way around.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let my hopes get too high again. Those high hopes which I was thinking I’d be happy with my life, but they were the unspeakable pain I have ever felt. Thinking happy thoughts and dreams with full high hopes was the greatest mistake I made. Because all of those are just crap.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let my heart take over with me again. Sure, I should consider what my heart feels but it was just a huge mistake ignoring what my brain told me. Because I thought I’d be so much happier if I let my heart win. But it turned out, you are my most painful heartache.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself get what I don’t deserve. Did you even know?  Because I loved you, I didn’t mind at all what you were doing for me in return. You didn’t have the guts to surprise me with a dinner date yet I still managed to cook dinner for you. But what hurts the most is that I still loved you even with your imperfections. That’s how perfect you were for me.. before.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself be taken for granted again. I will know and matter my worth more than the love.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself give too much again. Giving it all to you was something I had done because that’s how much you mattered to me. But in return, all I felt was nothingness. This time, I will make sure to spare myself the love I give. As they say, love yourself first.

Next time I fall in love, I will never let myself feel this kind of pain again. I will take every step slowly now. I will be more cautious. I will not let my emotional feelings get over me. What you made me experience is enough reason for me to be smarter this time around.  

But you know what? Next time I fall in love, I’d still wish you are the guy I am going to fall in love with. 

P.S.: Another article again. Forgive my emotional feelings and being so damn dramatic.

Forever A Missing Piece

It has been years now but the frustrations in me are like souls which are still seeking for their justice. The sadness I had felt since that day is still the same as now. Nothing ever changed. Even my love for you is still like the first time we kissed, the first time we dated.

I couldn’t even picture myself without you. Somehow, it amazes me how I manage to be happy in front of many people yet honestly I am dying inside. Guess I am really that good in trying to hide the pain. The last words you said to me keep coming on coming back, I keep hearing them whenever I am alone in my bed. Whenever I visit our favourite place, whenever I cook your favourite food, whenever I watch our favourite movie. Does it sound like I am torturing myself? Yes. If it’s that’s the only way I could remember you, your happy face, your manly yet pleasing voice, your sweet gestures, your cuteness like a kid whenever you are asking a favour. I don’t mind at all.

No words could ever tell how much I miss you. I miss you not just because you’re out of my sight now but I miss you knowing you are completely gone. And I will never see my other half again while I am running in this crazy world. I will never feel that hug again whenever I feel like breaking down.

Wherever you are, I know you are happy. There is no pain now, love. You are now free out of all these crap in life. You are now living in a paradise, you deserve it. Because you are an angel, you have always been my guardian angel. Don’t worry about me, I will still keep my best to stay happy like what you asked me to. But I hope you know that happiness you gave me will never be replaced by anyone else.

People come and go in my life but you are the only who stays in my heart, my vision of you smiling in front of me will never fade. The other half of me and my heart have always been yours. Forever. I will always keep loving you.

They say happiness is a choice, but what if my choice is gone now? 

Random article which I wrote when I felt like dying because of a boring subject. LOL. 

Girl Crushes: Maxene & Saab Magalona

Since my stress week was finally over, I'd came up with an idea of having a blog post about the 2 of my girl crushes, Maxene Magalona & Saab Magalona. Yes, I don't have just boy crushes but I have girl crushes as well! And these two lovely ladies belong to the group.

You know, having girl crushes is fun because it means you follow them, you adore them, you love them as much as you do for the boy ones. But you know, Saab and Maxx are more than that. They are the ones I really loving following and stalking their accounts (shh!)! That's why they are very close to my heart.

I first knew about Maxene since she started acting on television, though, I am just 14 years old. She was one of those people I first followed on Twitter and since that day, I became her fan. She is a versatile actress, she acts naturally. She has this talent that will make you feel the real emotion she is trying to make you feel. But in real life, I love her very charming face and her very well pointed nose! Goodness. Every time she posts a photo on her Instagram account (especially when she is wearing her RayBans), really, it feels like I am seeing a goddess. I can't just wait to meet her in personal! 

She is also true to her words, very generous and caring. The way she posts on her Instagram account, she is family lady. She loves it when her whole family is around. She deserves true love and I'm glad that she finally found someone who will take care of her. I wish he really is the one!

On the other hand, Saab Magalona was also one of the people I first followed on Twitter. I remembered I saw a picture of her on Twitter and she was so gorgeous! No kidding. She is beautiful in her own unique way. She dresses simple yet elegant. What I love about Saab is she loves to blog and say what she really thinks. To be honest with you, she was one of the main reasons why I decided to have a blog of my own. Yes, she is one of my inspirations in life. 

I haven't met them yet, yes, but I believe sooner or later my wish will be finally granted. The fact that they studied in Ateneo makes me a real die hard fan. Because that university is my dream school for college. Haha! I thank Pia & Francis Magalona for bringing these 2 ladies in this world. They will be my forever girl crushes! <3 

Follow them and see for yourself how beautiful they are! 

Maxene's Twitter and Instagram account: @maxenemagalona

Saab's Twitter and Instagram account: @saabmagalona

You can also visit Saab's blog and actually win one of her giveaways (she loves having one): spellsaab.com 

Oh, I just love my girl crushes. Will tell you soon about them! (Yes, I have a lot).

(Credits to photo owners!)

Miss Little Tall Girl Named, 

Bea 

Life is fun!

Okay, I know I just said on my last post that I was going to be a busy bee for my 3rd quarter exams and in any case you want to know and I'd like to emphasize, I am (weh) reviewing right now for my last day of heaven tomorrow (see the sarcasm there, huh?) but unfortunately I found myself browsing on my Twitter page and realized some random things which are, obviously, I wanna share through my blog. 

But before anything else, this is not actually a very serious matter, it is just (like what I mentioned) some realizations in life. Well, now you're on my page, why not try reading this one? 

As a teenager, we are facing a lot of problems. Like yeah, school stuff, parents, family, friends and if you are unlucky, having a love life. I am not bitter, first and foremost. But don't you think having a boyfriend just sometimes complicate your life? Well, in my opinion. It is not a matter of fact, anyway. That is another story which I would mind talking about. 

ANYWAY, these past few days, I noticed that some of my friends are having a hard time moving on with their lives. But before we go with that, I am not going to preach here and act like Ms. Know It All. After all, there's no big deal saying what you think and feel, right? Though, limitations should always be there. Things about moving on, being happy and being contented are now issues. Well, they have always been. What suprises me is that, we, teenagers think and overthink about them a lot. 

I am also a teenager and faces many trials in life. There comes a time when I literally asked myself, 'why do I have to experience this when in fact I am just a teenager girl/a high school girl and I AM NOT THAT MATURED enough yet to face such chaos?' But, everything happens for a reason, as we always say. 

Moving on in the first place is actually a huge issue in one's life when you go deeper. Like really, moving on is NOT DONE overnight and will never be. Unless the situation hasn't given you that trouble too much. But that is not the issue. If a situation or memory has made you feel a lot, you would always find yourself having hard time moving forward with your life. Why so? Because memories are not forgotten. True enough. There will always be a time when somebody leaves you (like they always say, people come and go) but the experiences you've shared together will always be permanent. Scars. 

I don't know why being happy is now a problem. And, I mean it. As I say to myself every time I find a hard time being happy with my life, 'happiness is a choice'. You will never experience it if you keep on looking back. You will never experience it if you let the ghost in your past manipulate you and your feelings. Yes, we are humans. We get tired and hurt. But, like the storm, it is not forever. There will always be another day with the sun smiling brightly at you. NOW, it is your choice whether to greet him back with a smile on your face.

Being contented has always been an issue ever since. Like when you were a little kid and you kept on comparing yourself with other people. I would say, this is also my huge problem because sometimes I wanted myself to have more, feel more and do more. But remember this, being contented always comes with being happy and thankful. Learn them first. Then you will contented in any way. 

I don't know if this will make you feel better. I don't know if this will make your life change. But remember, it's now or never. Be miserable or be happy. You always get to choose. Sorry, I just had to write what my head tells me to do. :) 

We don't get the "happiness" we want in a snap. But we always have a choice to make everything right.

Miss Little Tall Girl Named, 
Bea

Books as blessings

Hi, 2014! Hello, people!

Yes, my blog deserves a greeting like that because.. dude, another year has passed! Geez. Days now are getting so much faster than they were before. Anyway, another year means not totally a clean slate but a fresh start. To be honest, I was really planning to change my bad habits into good ones but I’ve realized I’ve been trying that ever since and well.. I still keep on coming back to those not so good habits of mine. That’s why I decided just to not lose myself on track. Anyway, the bad habits I talk about are not really that bad like what you are thinking. Haha. They are just the normal teenagers’ probs. LOL.

This blog post is not entirely about the new year. Thus, I want to share with all of you the books I’ve received last holidays. To everyone who’s been a part of my life, they know how obsessed I am (hey, they call me in that way!) when it comes to books. I also realized that because nowadays I keep reading books and just putting internet aside. That’s when I knew to myself that I changed my attitude a little bit when it comes to my books. A good thing, eh?

Here it goes, the first one was 548 heartbeats given to me by a great friend, Eliza.

Yes, reading Summit Books (Pop Fiction) is included in the obsession I mentioned earlier. I know you’d understand me because most of the books they are selling are for teenagers like me. So, why not let myself feel kilig just this time? Like, I don’t have a boyfriend anyway. :P The story suits for every high school girl (with or without a boyf) because think about this.. Who doesn’t have a crush? Who haven’t had a crush? Well, the answers say it all. The story or the book may be cliché but whatever, I still enjoyed reading it.

The next one is The Lovely Bones which my best friend Gail bought for me because I REQUESTED FOR IT. Yeah, what a lucky biatch I am! *winks*

I personally requested for it because I was so curious about the story. Though, it has a movie version already, ever since I have always been a fan of the book version. The story itself made me feel how important my life is. True. The story deals about situations regarding with your family, friends and everyone who surrounds you. I haven’t watched the movie yet and I’m so looking forward to it.

My kris kringle (for Christmas party) asked my friends in our room which book to buy for me. And the day came, he bought me “For Hire: A Damn Good Kisser”. Yuppie, another Pop Fiction book again. I just read the book now and I don’t know if the ending was really meant to be in that way because I was in the mood “asking for more”. Obviously, I read in its book version. BUT, the story has actually a lot of humor and spice. If you want to still feel kilig but somehow in a different way, try reading this one.

I’ve also gotten the latest installment of Diary of A Wimpy Kid: The Hard Luck. Yes! It feels like, “Finallyyyy!!!” When my ate (cousin) was about to buy a gift for me (she told me she was actually planning to buy me a dress) but I told her it would be much better if she’d buy the book for me. And luckily, she did. She and her boyfriend told me that it was the last piece already at Fully Booked Glorietta. And yes, I was a lucky biatch again. Hahaha!

Like every Diary of a Wimpy Kid I’ve read, it got me laughing so hard to the point that I looked like a girl who totally find the book so interesting. It also became my stress reliever that time. The books pretty much focused about friendship which was accurate in that moment. Until now. It was definitely worth the money! <3

If you’re going to ask me if they are worth my time and money (though I wasn’t the one who bought them), yes they are. You see, they are really my personal choices and I thankmy friends and family who spent their money just to give me satisfaction by giving me these books. Hey, I am also grateful for all the stuff they've given me! But I will be more honest, books always get me. ;) 

I promise to let you know which book I am reading for the moment! <3 But for now, wish me luck for my 3^rd grading exams. Besos!